Kayise Ngqula opens up about staying emotionally strong

11 January 2021 - 07:00 By Masego Seemela
TV presenter Kayise Ngqula strives to maintain being emotionally strong.
TV presenter Kayise Ngqula strives to maintain being emotionally strong.
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Although TV presenter and actress Kayise Ngqula has tried her best to keep a positive mindset by staying strong emotionally, she has revealed the deaths in her family have led to her anxiety shooting off the roof.

The TV presenter, who is still mourning the death of her husband Farai Sibanda in a car accident in 2019, has lifted the lid on battling to cope with the news of the death of her loved ones.

Although she does well on some days by staying and keeping positive, she revealed January 7 was not one of those days. She said hearing of the deaths pulled her back into the “dark place” in which she ound herself when she lost her husband.

“Today has been one of those emotionally tough ones. My anxiety is properly shot. I’ve done all I can in the past few months to work on feeding my mind with all the positivity I can (and I intend to continue) but today was hard,” she said.

Kayise said what sent her anxiety levels high was hearing of her loved ones succumbing to the coronavirus.  

“From being worried about a loved [one] who is fighting the virus to hearing the news of the loss of a loved one of someone I cared about, it is dark but we will find light again.

“My only wish is that once we do, we never allow anything to ever take away the joy of knowing that we overcame. Goodnight. Stay blessed. Keep safe.”

Last year, the former Our Perfect Wedding presenter reflected on the pain of losing her husband in an episode on her YouTube channel After Dark with Kayise.

In the episode, she thanked her family for the love and support they showed her during the difficult times.

“My mother, you could see she was taking strain having to care for me and my eight-month-old baby. She did it with such grace, commitment and love. I remember bawling my eyes out when she looked at me and said, 'I wish I could take away your pain.'”

The presenter said her mother helped nurture her back to full health after the accident because she could not walk and bath without help or drive.

“When we came back from the funeral I think is when I really felt the love and support from my family, friends and most certainly from SA. I probably would have never made it without my family.”