J Molley opens up about mental health struggles, celebrates 'miracle' of survival on 26th birthday

Jesse “J Molley” Mollett has marked his 26th birthday with a heartfelt reflection on his ongoing battle with mental health.

The rapper took to his Instagram timeline expressing gratitude to God for saving his life despite numerous attempts to take it. He described his survival as “an absolute miracle”.

“I am reminded of the grace of God. Over 20 suicide attempts, eight being this year alone, and I'm still here. It's nothing short of an absolute miracle I'm here.

“I was the last person who could've been convinced of Christ, and here I am. Now that my barn has burnt down, I see the moon. All praise to the most high, Jesus Christ Of Nazareth. Not my will, but His will be done.”

When shedding light on men's mental health awareness month, the rapper shared a video on his Instagram slamming claims of the incident being an attempt to get attention or promote his brand. 

J Molley said he has been having “suicidal thoughts every single day since childhood” and was possessed by the thought of ending it all due to immense suffering when he went on social media recently.

“It's utterly vile and ignorant to accuse me of doing such a thing like that for a PR stunt, to get more likes. I have attempted suicide 200 times. I have been on the brink and I have been [nearly successful] about 14 times. Did I publicise that? No. This is the first incident where I publicised it,” he said. 

“I don't kill myself for attention. I have never written a suicide letter in my life. When I commit suicide I do it because I want to die, so please stop with the false allegations [sic].”