Louisa Zondo shares the guilt and sadness after Riky Rick took his life

Louisa Zondo broke down when she opened up about how she processed her late son rapper Rikhado “Riky Rick” Makhado's death.

The rapper died aged 34 after he took his own life on February 23 2022.

In a recent sit-down with DJ Sbu on his podcast The Hustler's Corner, Louisa described her pain the only way a mother can: a deep sense of responsibility, guilt and sadness.

“Loss of a loved one who dies is devastating, it's sad on its own. There is something additional about a loved one dying by suicide. There's something that happens and I'm going to talk about a mother now. There's something that happens to the mother. Because as mothers we carry with ourselves this beautiful tag of being the carers and nurturers of the children who come to this earth through our bodies or the children we commit to be mothers to through any other means and we shape them. We shape their lives through the way we live life. So when my child commits suicide I go through a lot because there is a huge sense of responsibility of guilt, of deep sadness and not being able to hold my child such that that end could've been different.”

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She said she had to undergo psychosocial therapy. 

In her journey to healing Louisa penned a book, Dearest MaRiky — A Mother’s Journey through Grief, Trauma and Healing, where she expresses her love for her son and the pain of losing him through telling the story of her life and experiences that shaped her in an effort to understand her life’s path, and get closer to healing.

“Even though for a long time I felt extreme longing and pain when engaging with memories of my son — images of him, a sense of his presence in various spaces, his music and material on the internet — engaging with the memory of my son was the very thing I was drawn to,” she told TshisaLIVE.