Gigi Lamayne on mental breakdown & overcoming depression:
'Last year on November 4. It nearly almost ended for me. I was in a dark pit with the wrong company, lonely, hurt and frustrated'
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A year after being hospitalised for attempting suicide, Gigi Lamayne has opened up about the changes she's made and how she's putting herself first.
Gigi shared a thread on Twitter, detailing what led to her nearly giving up on life.
“Last year on November 4. It nearly almost ended for me. I was in a dark pit with the wrong company, lonely, hurt and frustrated. What a movie my life has been. Waking up and realising in that hospital bed that some things gotta change ... at 24.”
She added that besides being constantly bashed on social media, she was sad and young.
“It all died when I put people before me. I was in a toxic relationship. Forgot to love myself because I was too busy trying to fix another.”
The rapper shared some of the pain she went through before she decided to change her life.
“I was isolated from friends. I was accused daily, humiliated publicly and stripped off (sic) my dignity. My people watched in horror because everybody knew.”
Now the rapper has shared her future plans and projects with fans.
“2020 we have the Amsterdam tour, The Gigi Gang Show, the presidential inauguration and also, a really cool business venture I’m going to be announcing soon that gets everyone involved. This simply shows that God walks with us in our darkest times until we clean up house.”
Gigi reiterated the importance of getting rid of bad energy by letting go of people who don't build you or aren't for you. “In 2020, bad friends gotta go for you. Dream and passion killers gotta go. Toxic abusive relationships gotta go. It’s time to live for you.”
She said the time to love and live for you was now.
“Pray hard. My life is and will become the biggest testimony to this. Let them talk. One day they’ll have girl children too. Live to inspire. You can’t fix anyone. Remember to look into your past too and why you make certain decisions. You’d be shocked.
“Just because you came from an abusive home, doesn’t mean you deserve to abuse or be abused. The cycle stops somewhere. Love to you all. Thank you for loving me.”
1. Last year on the 4th of November. It nearly almost ended for me. I was in a dark pit with the wrong company, lonely, hurt and frustrated. What a movie my life has been. Waking up and realizing In that hospital bed that some things gotta Change... At 24 [A Thread]
— #Album2020 (@Gigi_Lamayne) November 4, 2019
2. Besides being constantly bashed on social media , I was sad, young but hungry, it all died when I put people before me. I was in a toxic relationship. Forgot to love myself because I too busy trying to fix another.
— #Album2020 (@Gigi_Lamayne) November 4, 2019
3. Crazy how I had to clean up my life. I was mothering and caring for somebody who constantly killed me in every way. I was isolated from friends. I was accused daily, humiliated publicly and stripped off my dignity. My people watched in horror because everybody knew...
— #Album2020 (@Gigi_Lamayne) November 4, 2019
4. There were people who saw me being ripped apart sometimes in public areas. Voice notes and videos people took that I have proof of who pleaded for me to love myself. I’m here asking for the media not to misquote me. I want you to know that self love is so important.
— #Album2020 (@Gigi_Lamayne) November 4, 2019
5. I too was blackmailed every time I didn’t behave “accordingly”. I’ve never received a thank you nor an apology from someone who left me to completely die whilst ripping out my soul emotionally and physically for months, cheating and misinforming peeps..I’ve lived with that...
— #Album2020 (@Gigi_Lamayne) November 4, 2019
6. “Even if there are stories that exist before, we always try to fix them. We ignore the stories and create our own truth.” “ We need to Accept the apologies we were never given”. I bury the hatchet today. I was severely abused. That impacted on my work- but I’m thankful.
— #Album2020 (@Gigi_Lamayne) November 4, 2019
7. The worst thing is to see a mother bury their child. Imagine that. But for anyone who has seen me in recent times, I want you to know that I’m happier, hungrier and one day this book shall be written in my words.
— #Album2020 (@Gigi_Lamayne) November 4, 2019
8. 2020 we had the Amsterdam tour, The Gigi Gang Show, the Presidential inauguration and also, a really cool business venture I’m going to be announcing soon that gets everyone involved. This simply shows that God walks with us in our darkest times until we clean up house.
— #Album2020 (@Gigi_Lamayne) November 4, 2019
9. In 2020, bad friends gotta go for you. Dream and passion killers gotta go. Toxic abusive relationships gotta go. It’s time to live for YOU. I’d like to publicly thank a few people for openly supporting me when it didn’t seem cool for some of your faves.
— #Album2020 (@Gigi_Lamayne) November 4, 2019
11. Time to love and live for you. Pray hard. My life is and will become the biggest testimony to this! Let them talk. One day they’ll have girl kids too. Live to inspire. You can’t fix anyone. Remember to look into your past too and why you make certain decisions. You’d be..
— #Album2020 (@Gigi_Lamayne) November 4, 2019
12. Shocked. Just because you came from an abusive home, doesn’t mean you deserve to abuse or be abused. The cycle stops somewhere. Love to you all. Thank you for loving me. ❤️ Stronger than ever. I assure you.
— #Album2020 (@Gigi_Lamayne) November 4, 2019
13. Oh shit I’m independent and working harder than ever. ❤️🙆🏾♀️ pic.twitter.com/mEKD7YttmA
— #Album2020 (@Gigi_Lamayne) November 4, 2019
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